*sighs* Faith in Humanity...DESTROYED.

WARNING:
The Following Journal is a rant.
If you aren´t interested in it or whatever,then please don´t read it.I´m going to rage about intolerance,lack of respect etc...

Today,I was going to give a lecture about the differences between the Gothic Subculture and Satanism.
I did it a few months ago with in her class and I was impressed.
The Pupils were really interested and asked us some really good questions.All in all,I really was impressed because I was expecting some childish comments,offensive comments etc. But It was really fun talking about that and It was worth it!We don´t hear any stupid comments and they accept us as we are and now they know that Gothic and satanism are 2 different things.  

And Today,we had to give the same lecture in my class.
A Disaster...no joke.
First,we walked in and they started to get really loud.They were shouting,laughing...whatever.
And we had to hear the most stupid questions ever.
"eeeh do you have sex normally? Are you Nazis? "  Oh God -.-"""""""""
We actually wanted to say everything and they can ask questions if they got any.Before the presentation started,I clearly said "We take this really serious,So please desist stupid comments and don´t say anything offensive. "  Then it began,when we were talking,they constantly started interrupting us.And were asking us stupid questions all the time.We were standing in front of my whole class,and were talking about the differences,but of course,they weren´t listening...
We even printed 2 photos of Emo girls *because they always call us "Emo" and we wanted to show them how emos actually look like *  we passed them around and all they said was "OMG they look so fucking hot!"  "woah do you have their numbers?"  and the only thing I said about that was " you know...you call us emos in a negative way...and now you call them hot? I don´t see how this makes any sense..."  the only thing they replied was " but they look so good!"   
*sighs*

And..I´m sorry guys but I have to admit something:
I didn´t really drew something decent for the past 2-3 weeks because my self-confidence is fucked.
I don´t really want to submit anything...
And the reason why I have uploaded the picture of me with the black wig is because I actually didn´t had the courage to upload anything and I had to do something against it.
My Classmates have been calling me "ugly" "horrible" "stupid"  etc for the past 2 or 3 weeks. I don´t know.
I know how it is to get bullied and I can get over it.But constant,for weeks like that?There is a point where I´m just too weak and just want to wear a mask whenever I go out...It´s already hard enough for me to look into a mirror and see myself.

And Now,some of you may think I´m an "attention whore" or something. I just want to make clear that I have to write down my thinking to calm myself down. And I say it out loud because sometimes,I just want to hear some other Opinions on that specific situation.It´s not that I want to hear comments like "omg You are so beautifull!!! Don´t think that way!"  I´m really thankful for that though.But It´s not the main reason why I post it.Just wanted to make clear that I´m not a "facebook whore who is lost on deviantART" or something.And If it annoys you,just don´t read it.I think the titles of my journals mostly say it all

Thanks for reading...    


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